I Can't Remember

I can't remember 

What was said.

What caused the circuitry

To short and fade.

I don't want you around here

I don't want to say your name

I threw out all your pictures

After a couple days

I can't help but worry

You've given up

What we'd built

For your spinning compass

And your cowardly ways

I wish you well

With your broken wrist

And your spilt coffee

Waiting for me

As you always do

As you always would.

You traded your talent

For what I can't understand

Maybe I was the dangerous one

That gave you all away.

Where the hell did you go?

You might as well have died

At your grandfather's funeral

You wear his coat

So well.

Trigger

On the grass.
I talk to the girl from last year.
She had straight lines on her face.
She didn't care.
I lay here on the bed.
My heart about to choke.
I don't read your broken letters.
I don't know your words.
They've all run me dry.
I hide every image you write.
You think it's about you.
It's not.
You don't listen.
You don't read.
Broken wrist.
I could have been anyone.
To you
I am the streetcar, the busted track.
I'm taking a break, a hiatus.
Forced.
Because I want the trigger
I want the hunger back.