Hit and miss

In the middle of the night
When you're all alone
The bridges you kept
Wouldn't they feel better burned?
So much I don't understand
So, so much for that.
Do you sit still
With your cat under a lamp
Trying to fit words
Into feelings
And put feeling into words
I wish you had said something nice
As a reward
That it all wasn't some show
Some convenience of the heart
I couldn't throw fast enough
To get you to swing
A hit and a miss
A hit and a miss.
No one can play on your team
When you won't.
Play at all.

It's Terrible

It's terrible
To settle down
Let the dust settle
On the books you'll never
It all makes great company
This terrible
Lover
Troubled
Cover to cover
Following you down
What's keeping you back
Is keeping you down
And I'm not walking back
I'm not calling Tuesday
I'm not waking up Sunday
Because I'm not going to bed
I'm not going to sleep
I'm not going to break
I'll hold the walls up
Because I know better
Than your bad decisions
Are keeping me down
Getting around
These bad decisions
With your name written on them
For years now
Who knew you could be so broken
For so long
At least I cared
I'm running scared
But at least I cared.

Once again

I don't know what to say
When all the things we want to
Might end this all.
Pull the trigger
Find out
Russian roulette.
Let go or hang on
Makes no difference
Where the hell
We end up.
Together. I expect you.
As I always do
Waiting and wishing
And hoping
And leaving.
Once agai.

Sweet heart, falling apart.

When you're walking on the street
Does your heart skip a beat
Does your mind know what to do
Walking ten miles
Do you see me and dial
When you've drowned in a river
Floating up in the middle
Do you love anybody but you
Caught in the middle
Caught between you and you
Sweet heart, sweet heart
Falling apart
I can't hold on
Sweet heart, sweet heart
Falling apart
I'm gone.
When you caught in the middle
Do you know what to do
When I am caught in the middle
Between me and you.
I get up in the morning
Go to bed every night
I hope in the morning
I will feel something right.

Started with a lie

I'm not sure where to stand
When the ground falls through
And I start to ramble on
Like the way
You do.
I don't know how to say
The things I wanted to
In the first place
So I started with a lie.
I couldn't catch my breath
In the hurricane
When the walls folded in
And the cielinng began to cave
You were waiting there
When it all went down
And I tried to work out
But my hands were bound.
To you.

Until you smile

Not sure where to stand
When the ground falls through
And I ramble on
The way I do
Because I don't know how
TO stay the things
That I wanted to
In the first place
Started off with a lie
Couldn't get over that
Couldn't believe how long
And how much was said
And the truth it never came out
The truth was never true.
So paint over me
I'll blend into the wall
Until I'm forgotten
Back to the invisible girl
With sad stories
And big brown eyes
Making the saddest faces
Until you smile.

Housecoat

I sleep in a housecoat
I command the weather
From the thick of my veins
My blood is a rain drop
It takes power and time
And pain
To make this right
We ain't ever gonna make this right
We put up the fight
Fighting ghosts
Avoiding conversations
So I sleep in a housecoat
I command the weather
From the thick of my veins.