Hit and miss

In the middle of the night
When you're all alone
The bridges you kept
Wouldn't they feel better burned?
So much I don't understand
So, so much for that.
Do you sit still
With your cat under a lamp
Trying to fit words
Into feelings
And put feeling into words
I wish you had said something nice
As a reward
That it all wasn't some show
Some convenience of the heart
I couldn't throw fast enough
To get you to swing
A hit and a miss
A hit and a miss.
No one can play on your team
When you won't.
Play at all.

It's Terrible

It's terrible
To settle down
Let the dust settle
On the books you'll never
It all makes great company
This terrible
Lover
Troubled
Cover to cover
Following you down
What's keeping you back
Is keeping you down
And I'm not walking back
I'm not calling Tuesday
I'm not waking up Sunday
Because I'm not going to bed
I'm not going to sleep
I'm not going to break
I'll hold the walls up
Because I know better
Than your bad decisions
Are keeping me down
Getting around
These bad decisions
With your name written on them
For years now
Who knew you could be so broken
For so long
At least I cared
I'm running scared
But at least I cared.

Once again

I don't know what to say
When all the things we want to
Might end this all.
Pull the trigger
Find out
Russian roulette.
Let go or hang on
Makes no difference
Where the hell
We end up.
Together. I expect you.
As I always do
Waiting and wishing
And hoping
And leaving.
Once agai.