Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Truth or dare

I'm not sure where to stand
When the ground falls through
I start to ramble on
The way you do

I don't know how to say
The things I wanted to
In the first place
So I started with a lie

It's truth or dare
And I'm well aware
That I can't be fair

Cause nothing compares

This truth or dare
Will end this affair

Friday, December 2, 2011

Your bones
Keep on sticking out
I don't
Think we can work this out
I know
The best of me
Will never
Be able to compete with
Your bones
Your bones
Your bones.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Wrecked by morning

If life's an adventure
Then you're a wounded hero
And waiting to be triumphant
Lead me on, lead me on
Hallow speeches
In white places
Lead me on, lead me on
Light the candle
by the doorway
Buy a ticket
Overnight to Norway
Lead me on, lead me on
The friends of this year
Will be gone and
I'm holding
I'm holding strong
Lead me on, lead me on
Cause I'll be wrecked by morning

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Hit and miss

In the middle of the night
When you're all alone
The bridges you kept
Wouldn't they feel better burned?
So much I don't understand
So, so much for that.
Do you sit still
With your cat under a lamp
Trying to fit words
Into feelings
And put feeling into words
I wish you had said something nice
As a reward
That it all wasn't some show
Some convenience of the heart
I couldn't throw fast enough
To get you to swing
A hit and a miss
A hit and a miss.
No one can play on your team
When you won't.
Play at all.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

It's Terrible

It's terrible
To settle down
Let the dust settle
On the books you'll never
It all makes great company
This terrible
Lover
Troubled
Cover to cover
Following you down
What's keeping you back
Is keeping you down
And I'm not walking back
I'm not calling Tuesday
I'm not waking up Sunday
Because I'm not going to bed
I'm not going to sleep
I'm not going to break
I'll hold the walls up
Because I know better
Than your bad decisions
Are keeping me down
Getting around
These bad decisions
With your name written on them
For years now
Who knew you could be so broken
For so long
At least I cared
I'm running scared
But at least I cared.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Once again

I don't know what to say
When all the things we want to
Might end this all.
Pull the trigger
Find out
Russian roulette.
Let go or hang on
Makes no difference
Where the hell
We end up.
Together. I expect you.
As I always do
Waiting and wishing
And hoping
And leaving.
Once agai.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Sweet heart, falling apart.

When you're walking on the street
Does your heart skip a beat
Does your mind know what to do
Walking ten miles
Do you see me and dial
When you've drowned in a river
Floating up in the middle
Do you love anybody but you
Caught in the middle
Caught between you and you
Sweet heart, sweet heart
Falling apart
I can't hold on
Sweet heart, sweet heart
Falling apart
I'm gone.
When you caught in the middle
Do you know what to do
When I am caught in the middle
Between me and you.
I get up in the morning
Go to bed every night
I hope in the morning
I will feel something right.

Started with a lie

I'm not sure where to stand
When the ground falls through
And I start to ramble on
Like the way
You do.
I don't know how to say
The things I wanted to
In the first place
So I started with a lie.
I couldn't catch my breath
In the hurricane
When the walls folded in
And the cielinng began to cave
You were waiting there
When it all went down
And I tried to work out
But my hands were bound.
To you.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Until you smile

Not sure where to stand
When the ground falls through
And I ramble on
The way I do
Because I don't know how
TO stay the things
That I wanted to
In the first place
Started off with a lie
Couldn't get over that
Couldn't believe how long
And how much was said
And the truth it never came out
The truth was never true.
So paint over me
I'll blend into the wall
Until I'm forgotten
Back to the invisible girl
With sad stories
And big brown eyes
Making the saddest faces
Until you smile.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Housecoat

I sleep in a housecoat
I command the weather
From the thick of my veins
My blood is a rain drop
It takes power and time
And pain
To make this right
We ain't ever gonna make this right
We put up the fight
Fighting ghosts
Avoiding conversations
So I sleep in a housecoat
I command the weather
From the thick of my veins.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Catching Pennies

Write about the experiences
You had
And the love you have come to want
The bricks and mortar
That build your words
When you end it
Again
And Again
And again.
Like a some sorry cliche
Gum stuck to your shoe
Be rid of it
Be gone
You're a broken story
That spins it's wheels
A record on repeat
Repeat
Repeat
You can skip a heart
You can skip your heart beat
To know what you want
In the slightest
Jumping out of a cake
With a smile on your face.
You will not be reborn.
Just something solemn
Buried there where I told you a secret
A valuable memory
And you buried it there
Because it meant nothing.
It all seemed so quiet and calm.
Now it's just dark.
At the bottom of this well.
I'm catching pennies now.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

In the park

Cigarette burning on a picnic blanket
Where did it all go
Like some sad rom com
Fated to meet a sad
Yet comical end
We are all intersecting wire
And your glass if half full
Shattered on the floor
Tireless
You are the triumphant
Architecture
That walls haunt the drunk
The devoured
The premiscious
And I am the golden arch
That fell
And was burrows
All those years ago.
Attacked by a brown pigeon
In the park
By an oak
On the day
We met again
For the first time

Friday, May 20, 2011

Pray to a button

I touch my lips
And pray to a button.
On the shirt
Of a sleeve
On the floor.
I think to myself
What am i doing wrong
Looking up at a blackened skylight.
And dried up flowers.
Is this patent of sadness
Really all it's made out to be
And am I silly?
Am I unkind?
Am I the fortuitous legend
That always falls behind.
Embarrassed,
Morbid,
And lacking a memory
If when I connected.
I can't go back.
It's all different now
And I don't know where left
Turned right.
But it did.
I'm left without feeling value
I feel like I possess nothing.
But I am not unlike so many others
Who fall to the side
An empty vase,
A flag, a tea cup with a seed.
Then I remember who I am.
And then I know.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Each time is the last time.

Each time is the last time.
It's the last word, the last meaning
The last candle
Has burnt to the wick.
So this time
Was the next last time
And the city lights
We watch from the hills
You find me here
I am waiting there
For this one more last time
Sweeter than the last
Bitter and sweet
And the blood in between
Caring more.
Than one ought to
Than one should.
Than I have to assume
It's the last time
Each time.
To keep it sweet.
So I drag my toes
Along the bottom of the bed.
Painted red.
For the last time.

In between waiting lies a moment of hesitation and pursuit

Watched you drive away.
In my mind
Pulling away, going faster
In a blur.
You won't be back.
Or you can't know.
What I want to know.
I can't say I'm waiting
But I can't say I'm not
In between waiting
Lies a moment of hesitation
And pursuit.
Of being not good enough
Or too good.
Lying in the middle
Of the roads you travel down
Like a ghost
Of a future past
Falling ill
Failing sickness
Of all the people you are
The ones you pretend
And the truth you carry
With you.
I'm going to carry you with me.
Because you're going to carry me away.
One day.
It's happening, somewhere
In the middle.
I'm the road you travel down
The ghost
Of our future past.
Our passing future.
And it's over.

Everything goes better.

Everything goes better
When I'm alone.
The hurt carries a long way
Travels off into the distance
And brings back
A kill
Creative and kind
Bold and generous.
Tasting the air
Feeling the pavement
Rush by.
Several times
This has happened.
And it's about me.
I can't hold on.
I don't know how.
Tape fingers to metal
Metal to bone.
The long while
Is a shorter distance
Then imagined.
Through the vines of our veins
To the center of our bones.
Letting go now.
Piece by piece
Brittle bone by brittle bone.
To be alone.
Everything goes better.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Where you could never fall.

There are no clean goodbyes
So I'm making this one messy
I am painting it on the walls
The floor
The bed
Where you slept.
And watched me.
I wanted more
I couldn't quite catch your
Attention.
Or your
Direction.
I thought I was more
But turned out to be
Everything less.
So I don't let on
Moving fast
Moving farther
I did lie.
I did it twice.
And I won't do it again.
Until the next time
Anyway
All I can say is
I'm sticking around
Like a bad goodbye
I will paint your walls
Your ceiling
Until it's no goodbye at all.
I'm sorry I fell.
Where you could never fall.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I can guess your name

We stood by the city
And watched it fall
Building by build
You made the call
I wasn't good enough then
I'm not good enough
You wrapped your arms around me
And the city fell down
All we were
Was all we ever are
And I'm writing to you
I can't even call
I don't know who you are
I can guess at your name
You left blood on the window
But it's all the same.
Happy for once
But dead for awhile
Did you catch all these wishes
In your crooked smile?
I'll never know.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Face.

I can't see your face
Or hear your voice
it's buried down there
With some bright
Something new.
I can see your finger nails
The corner of your jaw bone
A crooked tooth.
I can't see anymore than that.
And it scares me.
Right down
to the glass wall.
That was put  up.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Folding

1, 2, 3, 4
I'm speaking french I'm wanting more
Here we go
Just sit tight
The wind will rise up
Assure you dont know anything
Or anyone
less than poetic
More than kinetic
Let it ride, let it mellow
I don't see you anymore
The dirt in the shadows
Let's goodbye some more.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Chaste

I wiped the blood off your face
While you told me how
Miserable
We had all been
Apart all this time
The people yelled your name
And we pretended to know
That something more was going to happen
When I fell
Skid across the pavement
I remember counting diamonds
On my skin
Off my skin.
To be chaste
Then let go.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Shoulder

Feathers fallen
On broken glass
Sweep the highway
Yellow lights flash
And rest your head
above my shoulder
I always wanted to feel like
I might grow older
In a field, there's a wound
and the scratches swell
I don't worry, couldn't worry
Because I always fell
So bright eyed
and weary
There's a dark in the night
Under stairwells, through queries
We'll be alright.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Start.

11, 6, 7.
So many ways to tell things apart
We ended everything
From the day we got a start.
And I'll count the numbers,
the words, the rhymes,
The 3am wake up calls,
Begging to be on time.
You hold it once,
Hold it close,
Keep it all together
That's how you make a ghost.
From the corner of your brain.
Count the inches of your heart.
Never knew you, never should have,
Ended it from the start.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Body Glow

We replace each other
again and again.
To right whatever wrongs
We penned in our heads
And we fold the covers
Then watch them tear
As we pretend we love
We pretend we care
You stood there in the lights
As if your body could glow
You looked me in the eye
You know, you know, you know
For a second it all breaks
The world continues to make sense
Until your hallow fades
Then load off into the end.

Monday, January 10, 2011

All your ex-lovers

All your ex-lovers
Will carry you to your grave
They shoulder your casket
To gave what you gave
And they fill it with roses
And thorns, and letters
Of the time you lost
The time spent together
And they walk down the stairs
Your frame on their shoulders
Never know what it's like
To watch you get older.
They are all in the prime
Of their very own youth
As they stare into your grave
They gave you the truth.